the other side of fungicide

i remember you

2009-05-13T15:02:00.003+08:00

just musing around, i noticed there's no way see my previous post for some reason which i only know :)

it brought me into question of, why im back into blogging? a quick answer would be: it makes me relaxed and instead talking, i shall wrote down things that runs on my mind. as joke says: arent you tired? you've been always running on my mind :p

here's a song which i could say: the last song to play on each time i smile, kiss and die.

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and I'd think of you
And all the tears you cried, that called my name
And when you needed me I came through

I paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you would make me see
I'd stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that I knew you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

We spend the summer with the top rolled down
Wished ever after would be like this
You said I love you babe, without a sound
I said I'd give my life for just one kiss
I'd live for your smile and die for your kiss

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

We've had our share of hard times
But that's the price we paid
And through it all we kept the promise that we made
I swear you'll never be lonely

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
But nothing else could ever take you away
'Cause you'll always be my dream come true
Oh my darling, I love you

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

GFC and KFC - kick this fucking crisis

2009-05-11T13:20:00.004+08:00

Its been a while for me not to face my blog. been from vacation (which lasted for almost a month) had flu (its not what you think) personal issues (missing my folks) and rocky career stat.

im in a cliff in which, one step more, i will be plunged into the waves of head count reduction. im trying to pinch myself on escaping this nightmare. was i able to escape? nope! i just got bruises...

life's like wheel - a very redundant saying from people had experienced being driven.

i really didnt care if this kind or sort of crisis would affect me. everything goes by monies sake. a total fucking a to think of. try thinking, these big shot people especially maangers, ceo's or company owners fighting over this piece of crap (money) and we suffer.

good thing my working visa was considered to be extended. in such way where they (HR team) dont even know whats going on with my current standings. another thing is, i had some job interviews from my previous company (well its microsoft)so im crossing my fingers... hope to get more invitations.

when times of trouble

2008-11-26T14:40:00.002+08:00

sobrang nakakalungkot. ayaw ko maging EMO masyado pero it leads me to be like it. from now on, i should keep myself busy talaga, for it wont lead me to destruction of my self conciousness. i got alot of pendings at work but this thing that keeps bothering me, makes my day very dull.

im always a poser of being a strong person. i dont want to share problems, especially things that i know na di nila ko ma ji-jive. i have handful of those, and yet most eh fault ko naman pero in the end much better na ganito na nga sort of thing.

at this moment, my expectation dropped fast to disappointment. i knock my head and say, it not a good thing.

there's no other place like home...

How to be dead

2008-10-29T11:34:00.002+08:00

Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truth
No you don't know what happened
And you never will if
You don't listen to me while I talk to the wall
This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall
Where you've had me for hours
Till I'm sure what I want
But darling I want the same thing that I wanted before
So sweetheart tell me what's up I won't stop no way

Please keep your hands down
And stop raising your voice
It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice
It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime
So just say yes or no
Why can't you shoulder the blame
Coz both my shoulders are heavy
From the weight of us both
You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth
You've not heard a single word I have said...
Oh, my God

Please take it easy it can't all be my fault
I haven't made half the mistakes
That you've listed so far
Oh baby let me explain something
It's all down to drugs
At least I remember taking the and not a lot else
It seems I've stepped over lines
You've drawn again and again
But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definitely out
Dr. Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride

http://60.191.249.11/download/downd113/ys/501/20.mp3

the new me (final na ito)

2008-10-08T11:12:00.002+08:00

sa wakas! im almost done with my report. grabe na ito...
hope from these aches (head, back, eyes)... wont tell a sign of aging (-:

i have some relievers. my ever loving family. im working for them and inspired by them. them who help me pull strenght and courage to act naturally even im so afraid who hides a real life lazy...

before, i wasted time to daydream.... as i currently speak (or say.. write), im drowning with my real life dreams. masyadong sumobra, naging exag. at least im happy kahit tinapon ako nito sa isang malawak na ocean - i have to swim by myself. im thankful at mabuti nalang, i have a pocket full of life supports to help me float during sprain attacks.

...and from now on, i pull away myself of being and getting involved. i have set a mind-your-own-business theme for things that are sooo petty. tumatanda na nga raw kasi ako... reality speaks, i have to act matured on this niche.

i have changed the way i ask grace. i asked for "them" to value ang lahat ng pinaghirapan ko. i seriously had a hard time to spend and budget it! naisip ko nga minsan na robot ba ko? )-: facing these issues helped me practice to deal with my anger and emo.

all things are made to be different, and i chose not to label a particular. everything comes with different size, shape, color and attitude. and we are made to have a distinct manner. to accept and to understand...

im tired of my boring life. i know meron pa kong mga bagay na di pa na trtry, a lot of opportunities, stakes, chances... pero lahat ng bagay may limitasyon.

and so the limit has reached. til my next blog...

im a prick, how about you?

2006-10-25T10:58:00.000+08:00

it was cool to sabotage things - especially if you dont like a certain matter and to avoid it, you have to sabotage... i remember when i was in college, i hated this lecture thing made in our lab pc's and guess what i did, i sabotage the whole class because i dont feel it. i admit my mistakes and i got punished which i deserved to be. but the main factor or the main mistake i made was, not just i did wreck the class but i never thought of my fellow classmates who were eager to learn and needs to pass their exam blah blah or else, no more scholarship. see? i was a prick that time and that made me learned a lesson. i never thought of other's sake. i didnt realise that my speculations would cause innocent nerdy beings to sabotage their dreams...

also, another thing... we are all sinners and there's so such saint who pretends to be good, wrecks or sabotage things just like what i did, and especially, careless for the innocent. we are all born fucking sinners and we are not given a special power of the Almighty Lord to rotten a persona. i had destroyed one's life, im a big fat liar, i talk shit at the back of my parents - i was the infamous blacksheep way back and now im proud to be a loafwinner! i did cheated my significant other which i REGRET until now... i cheated on exams of course, i killed a kitten, i stole money from my father's pants... im mayabang, i sometimes talk in a way i've almost hurt your feelings... alright, the sum of these things - im a fucking prick! AND I FEEL SORRY FOR THE PEOPLE WHOM I'VE HURTED with these things I made. You know who you are...

how about you? have you lately admitted your mistakes?

Lok

2006-10-23T10:42:00.000+08:00

great weekend eh. we spend much rest than shopping with my siggy. the reason? we just bought a notebook... his name is LOK - named after the technician where we bought it. acelle and i went to baoshan to check second hand machines. and we did catch this compaq presario i-forgot-the-model. silver-coated with black and very sleek. it looks new. thou he's celeron m and i dont care, i made him to 512mb. dvd-rom writer to save our videos. mirror-like lcd - watever you call it. semi-slim and since it looks like just new, less scratches... on his first day, man! fat and i were too worried, it didnt boot up. so we went back to baoshan and replace the ddram. geez! i hate being preached again. fat was freaking out and likes to get her money back... so i applied my technical customer service skills and explain the fact to an ignorant customer. (sorry heheee!)

so as if nothing happened, we use him the whole weekend just to check his performance. and great! it didnt gave me such headache. he runs smoothly. well its windows xp sp2 and vista "premium capable"... who cares, why we need to risk Lok and run like a turtle. anyway, forget that vista thing. as long Lok is running like a hare. the hell i care with your centrino.

here's how he looks like. exactly like this... how much we bought him? guess within the range of 20 to 25k in peso...

my name is Lok

for my life

2006-10-17T12:48:00.001+08:00

i prefer to make others happy.
i will do my best to make you happy.
i will try to give you everything i can.
i will work hard today and in the future to make you happy everyday.
i am not asking for an exchange, i just want you to be satisfied and complete.
i'll be always besides you whatever happens.

a trial given by God will makes us stronger and learn new things.
people who influence and who misunderstoods us will be there as a spice.
you and i will still hold together and journey the forever love.
our faith with God will set as guidance.
God will provide every impossible to possible if we believe in Him.
i will regret a single moment without you.

in case i lose you, i will never forget the chance you gave me on prolonging this life i love.
in case im gone for life, i will bring the memories in heaven and thank God personally
for having you, in my life...

now that i have you, i will do my best
and let God do the rest for our happiness...

the life i love with you.

geek stink breath

2006-10-16T11:50:00.000+08:00

my two crown teeth is aching to death! must need to prepare a fix for this next year.. now i am currently praying for something. waiting for a star to fall in a midst of monday afternoon. calling all saints and angels... and a search for a wishing lamp, so help me genie!!!

please give grace, and mercy... :(

word of honor

2006-10-13T12:21:00.000+08:00

hope she can practice a one word decision. i hate people without it. its like, you promise a thing and will all gone for such reason you're trying to insist. it disappoints me...

weekend trail

2006-10-10T11:28:00.000+08:00

got a pair of free trail 5.0 from NIKE . T'was unexpected here at Shanghai... I cant believe to have the brown version.

this is the third kick ass shoes I got in my entire life. the air max moto we bought last year was just so-so...

thanks fattie :)

soon...

2006-10-06T15:05:00.000+08:00

there are things in my mind that still bothers me. things and people influences, my family whom i long to be with me on this moment... im a person who will let you cry to death with my annoying piss. little you know, im currently having a big stress... until now, it knocks me down to death as how i piss off people.

how can i get along in the world where i want to be? to whom my dreams are kept? where is that place that no one knows only me? my reason to be strong is getting weaker. do i still have time for everything i left and forgotten since i had this? where is the freedom where i can forget everything?

can i just go home? please :(

revised version of I love you goodbye...

2006-10-05T18:19:00.000+08:00

Wish I could be the one
The one you think who could give you love
The kind of love you really need

Wish I could say to you
That I want to stay with you
But baby that's not me

You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I CAN do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But you dont want to be
you know you only hurt me
and you also make me cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday I can
Find some way to understand
I'm only doing this for you

I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart
I know this is the kindest thing to do

You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me

Oh you could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never gonna work out
I love you, goodbye

pride in the name of love

2006-10-04T18:24:00.000+08:00

just want to tell ya'll that i got no pride. i did swallowed it for sake. need to know why? well, i just choke from it since honor might knocked me down to hell. oh well, im proud. soon, i'll be enjoying life popping a Henri Winterman Cigars.. woooshhhhh!

ehem..... im working on it actually :)

something only we know

2006-09-25T12:14:00.000+08:00

im getting tired of things in life - problems, frustrations, achievements and sometimes issues that gathers in my mind. felt grateful to hear the words i was dreaming before we ended the day.

now ive learned that prayers can move mountains. illusions can be true if you think it is. setting a goal can lead to a real dream come true.

relief good

2006-09-21T18:35:00.000+08:00

i think everything would be back to normal..... again....til forever :D

do what you want to do

2006-09-18T13:04:00.000+08:00

last week's friday and saturday was one of a thing i want to do since then. we went out in a bar with fellow expats and last saturday, we went to this bar with almost-stripping-girls dancing in rock music. i met bacardi, made my night flawless to a deep slumber. oh yeah, tiger - last friday but i hate it. it made my throat sore. last saturday was monet's natal celebration. t'was fun - do i sound lame? oh boy i made a mint flavored menudo where in aplasticbasinwasthereason. anyway, how about me, what about me? still afraid....

lesson number 2

2006-09-15T18:54:00.000+08:00

i was recently afraid. i felt cold deep down my spine. i dont use to be like this before and i always feel nervous. Here some lines I want to share from the song "Because Of you" By Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh every day of my life
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you I am afraid

redemption

2006-09-14T11:33:00.000+08:00

still in a process of accepting the fact... i think its better to let other realize the real thing and not to give options.

its hard, since i cant resist to change. where to find a remedy for this poison that flows in my bloodstreams and cracks my head to death!

hope soon, i can find myself rushing for a deep slumber.... in short - hoping to be me AGAIN...

praning na ko!!

2006-09-13T13:56:00.000+08:00

im freaking paranoid and clueless. i dont know what's happening! do i still know myself? ive been so tortured and things still left unanswered. im looking forward for the letter R (its recovery man! not revenge).

lately, im beginning to forget hate. i was able to swallow pride to prove something.

must be brave and strong...

lahat tayo ililibing, ayon sa kababayan nateng magagaleng, pero mas ok raw ang dateng - kung di ka praning bwahahaha! - datu's tribe

the scientist and a gamer

2006-09-12T10:02:00.000+08:00

Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions Oh let's go back to the start
Tell me you love me, and come back and haunt me, Oh, when I rush to the start
Nobody said it was easy, It's such a shame for us to part
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

pushing start will make a game pause on PS2, why? I have to do something. like - take a pee, eat, take a shower, move another seating position or anything you can think of. but what if i said i need to pause this game to end it since my eyes are getting irritated, my finger skin are worned out due to controller, im sick and tired of this game or need to take rest. with these reasons, i think, pausing a game is not a big deal for me to forget playing. im a gamer for life. i can be a gamer forever. i can start a game for every pause i made.

The Gamer and The Scientist

memoirs...

2006-09-08T00:54:00.000+08:00

the end is getting near, i'm not sure how well im prepared. if you'll ask me, its not that easy. i almost dream to have one which before i used to stare on some, how it was expressed. i also used to listen and advice but now, i need a some dose of it. it was not hard to have it, actually, i never spend even a pile of sweat. it was a piece of cake. i did enjoyed, i actually love the company. tho there was something that i think of - regret on losing it soon. i still pursue and continued since it was a worthwhile thing to have and feel, plus the security and assurance you've aggreed of. sky was the limit. it made my 3650 days happy. well, nobody's perfect, there's still tons of issues happened but at least it made to reach 10...

now, caught red handed weeping and having a disturbed mind. things have changed. things suddenly loop into something different. its like youre in the middle of setting one's dream then suddenly you were ask to stop it. its hard tho, you need to accept. now, i should pack all this shit out of my head and try harder to accept reality.

my oh my...

2006-09-02T03:55:00.000+08:00

never let someone be your priority, while allowing yourself be their option...

excuse my french...

2006-08-28T21:08:00.000+08:00

these people keeps me losing my rag! i wonder whats up with them. maybe they were too coward with their own ghosts..

IFYOUREVERHADACHANCETOREADTHISSHITIWISHYOUCOULD paddle your own canoe...

my toystory

2006-08-26T00:58:00.001+08:00

its been weeks man! im getting hooked on games. i almost skip meals, body scrub (soon, bathe) getting fit and luvlife (meron he2!) on this machine... oh well who's dont? im becoming a game diva soon, and to avoid the conflict, i need to buy my own tube. yes, i need to, since my roomies are getting mad about my habit. oh boy i found a solution to my dilemma and geez the price is almost the same. its priceless tho! i can play whereever, whenever and whatever! i'll be posting the real picture of him soon as he get all dressed up.

this one best describes me...

2006-08-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

if there's bad news, there's good news!

2006-08-08T01:41:00.000+08:00

at last I bought a nice slim PS2, charcoal black and it made my boredom+anger+frustration = f*cking-A FUN! I almost forgot my swimming saturday playing call of duty he2!

hmm good thing our satellite is not up yet so once it is, no more playing till' wee hours.
Or, shall I get this LCD additional thingy for him? He2! that's another 1000rmb.

nike china sucks!

what about it? just simple, my oregon watch is busted after a week ago from its purchase. nothing happened, i place him on the drawers.

no doubt, it says made in china...

hay!

2006-08-04T01:55:00.000+08:00

im having a bad day. not all people born with the same skill and attitude. this is the issue i am facing here in this corporate shit. dont ever compare me with my opposite and dont ever dictate me for things i need to do... it wrecks my ego...

ahhhrrgghh! you wreck my plans dammit!

same old brand new

2006-07-28T02:50:00.000+08:00

still spending hell of a time here at shanghai... still makin money for living. speaking of leaving, fat left her company for accenture offer. this is what she waited for a long time, while me staying here still at GTSC slacking hehe!

well just want to announce that i bought the oregon watch at last! whoot whoot!
next target: whoot whoot!

its better to...

2006-07-13T00:11:00.000+08:00

get real, face life, move on, be strong, keep feet on the ground, smile or grin, be not sensitive, dont speak if not asked for opinions, be humble, stop talking shit behind (which i do hate most..) be nice or try nice, never say no, no primadonnas, stop being maarte, keep a line straight and dont even bother to break, no pretenders, no counterfeits, no hater he! that's all i can say, I hope I can be one of this so no one can be like this to me... wapak!

backstab me?

2006-07-06T06:01:00.000+08:00

who ever wants to do this to me. well i dare YOU to stop it now or else am gonna break your neck! I promise.

If you cant spill out to your blabbermouth something not good on my ears, well its better if I'll keep it up silence forever...

attitude might sometimes deceiving. I found yours the same...

stop talking shit behind my back, kid, ive been there, its my job, dont mess my fucking deal

dont piss or mess my life

Im beginning to hate you now

skeptic fung

2006-07-04T01:12:00.000+08:00

just recently, were trying to lie down calling home from here. hehe someone from "here" is tracing. so i keep my flithy hands off to my nortel.

news? well im trying and getting serious with my life. want someday, be a sucessful entrepreneur ( was it spelled right?) dont bother to ask when shall i begin since were starting it now.

4 eyed creature

2006-06-23T01:49:00.000+08:00

yep! starting to wear glasses again. this time i should take care. no choice or be blind little by little. why i had this kind of illness? this sucks! other suggest to look fancy. dress eyeglasses that fits with my attire. cool! and sounds a little expensive. should i consider surgery then? wouldn't it be nice :)

Manila

2006-06-21T05:23:00.000+08:00

Went home last May 31 and arrived last saturday. Humid and warm, made my migrane. Silly government employees, traffic and angst taxi drivers who sometimes takes advantage. Best of all, everythings expensive. If you're poor, how can you call a person like who is poorer from the start?

Shopping? Didn't missed it of course *wink*! Went to greenhills for 5 times. Didn't bought any special item. It wasted my time and my aunt's money.

Getting excited to go back here to work. Immigration messed me up of having my name. Yes, its my fault to have my name. Told them to blame my parents.

Now, Im back, working from 11pm to 8pm. Now its 5.30 and getting sleepy. Wake me up when its 8 am :)

Wahappan?

2006-04-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

This word was our mentor's favorite, dan from seattle. he says this words when these chinese colleagues speaks up on their own tougue. so wahappan to me, still the same fung but opps, i am becoming to be an addict again to books since a friend (monet) suprised me last monday. she thought of buying the right one, da vinci code in shanghai china. she got it as if she won a jackpot prize since its so very rare to find english books here. want to add that she purchased it from a peddler who sells with a wagon of books. looks good but you'll notice the cover's print was not that high class one, until... i was excited to begin reading and.. it was not da vinci's code man! its cover's deceiving! so, everyone would buy it... too bad... quite disappointed cos can only afford to buy it in PH or thru online. no choice, it was a gift to me so i should be contented.. i tried to read and yes it's convincing.. book's title is DIGITAL FORTRESS and I am almost done.

now i did try to check every peddler who sells da vinci's code, ask to tear off the book's plastic cover and its still DIGITAL FORTRESS. haha!

Alms!

2006-04-20T18:12:00.000+08:00

i never said that word last night... i was mad tired waiting for fattie from a subway station near our place with rheena. i was tired as well on pissing off rheena so i sat down for awhile in a way like taking a pee on a ground (hehe) then i was close to the ticket booth. i feel tired and restless so i made my head nod between my knees, then i looked like a beggar asking alms to people passingby the booth. then this guy went on my front and handed me a 10rmb bill (60 pesos if you convert it) i laugh hard while rheena was awfully ashamed on what ive done. well that's how i amuse myself tho! i kept that bill til' fattie arrived. then we saw a beggar (real one) so i gave my 5rmb. (dont ask the remaining 5 cos that cost my talent fee)

now that's a tactic! i knew it! that could be possible... hehe forgive me!

I feel paranoid

2006-03-21T13:32:00.000+08:00

Have you ever had spend the whole time saying thank you to you beloved ma and pa? Ask me, we'll I am not ms.perfect to do it all the time. Indeed, Im so far away from her and I am so worried. I feel that life's so short, I feel paranoid. Last year, Fat's mom passed away from cancer, now Minsally's "ina" currently on bad coma. Who's next? I dont want to make this happen with my parents, knowing my erpat's so hardworking and my nanay as well, but before that worst thing comes along our way, I wanna make sure i have done everything to give all i have as what they've done to me before i went this stage. I immediately called them up and they said - "pa-centralize mo bahay natin hehe! Now, that's another issue. Since its payback time, I'll try to make impossible-possible which according to my rule - I have to make'em proud of me from being a lazy sleepyhead to a sucessful smart-ass hehe!

snow in shanghai

2006-03-03T15:08:00.000+08:00

Just woke up to catch'em. And yes Im holding it!

self service condom in shanghai

2006-02-28T19:31:00.000+08:00

This thing caught my attention. It could be an abortion solution in the philippines :)

One Yuan tapos ang worry hehe!

10

2006-02-22T11:15:00.000+08:00

the spiderman of shanghai

2006-02-08T17:20:00.000+08:00

outside our building

astig no?

southpark

2006-02-07T09:28:00.000+08:00

its been awhile this blog was soo empty. i cant find anything to write down in here. ok ill share one thing ive been doing this early of 2006.

I spend my time watching southpark dvd, i have the set of season 9 down to season 6. these kids really rocks cos i love the way cartman pisses off kyle for being a jew. and this show knocks "chekwa" for being weird hehe! (whew! hope that word wont recognize them hehe) i see my self to cartman. i use to piss friends that way. well if you want to watch one of their episodes here's my fave one.

so dont piss me cos im gonna kick your freaking ass hehehe!

the real southpark, from L stan marsh, kyle browfloski, eric cartman, and kenny mccormick

happy birthday

2006-01-04T17:46:00.000+08:00

i celebrated my birthday away from home for the first time. i enjoyed it. my friends (berni and acel) went to our flat, bought some pizzas and a cake. wow! i blew my candle - a 2 and 6 figure. we spend til midnight pissing a chinese friend who gave me a skull figurine birthday present. i feel drunk and i havent took a bath. we celebrated my birthday last sunday which is january 1.

My cam sucks that day!

on january 3 i had alot of friends greeted me, most of them says despite im far, they wish me a merry birthday. i said its quite different cos im far from home. i set mind that next birthday i promisemyself i will have all the things i want for a birthday present. naks! would that be possible?

i received a birthday present from rheena, blizzard ice cream! yeap she gave me thou its cold down here at shanghai, that doesnt matter for a banana strawberry blizzard birthday. for that ice cream, my birthday lunch made rheena special naks! thanks! (much better if you included planters hehe!) lilet my flat mate bought ice creams too for dinner.

while walking home, fat suprised me, hehe too bad i can smell what's her gift! she bought me a nike leather wallet. i was quite disappointed that time since she use to nag me the whole day for some reason yun pala may gift sya sakin. she bought it for the last minutes. made me wait for long time in a subway exit. i appreciate her instincts of knowing which is what i want! that made me think how long weve been together for years already.... ^__^

thats my so-happy birth-day.

here's me arrested on dawn of January 1 for pissing everyone on the party (Im a party pooper hehe!)

unforgetful 2005

2005-12-27T09:33:00.000+08:00

ipod 20gb - birthday present - sold after 5 months
epacificglobal - my company after west
rheena - intorduced me to search engine optimization
seo specialist - my position
google.com, ebay.com, tipidpc.com - spent browsing these 2 sites on my daily work
free-online-business-directory.com - our group project at office with marc and andre
webposition, dreamweaver - my tools at work adjusted from technical support
photography, adobe photoshop, sony digicam - i was addicted
puerto galera - went twice this year
black chuckies - reborn
blossom - my dog adopted from KC's
parakeet birds - 2 pairs, first pair dies before i left them, another one pair still alive and kicking
paintball challenge - pissed off
samsonite - unexpected gift from ross
august 8 - the day i left manila
shanghaiexpat.com - my first job here at shanghai china as web banner designer
acel and berni - these two peeps helped me to stay here
microsoft - my work US ROSS and SEA account
online concierge - my pending job next year hopefully hehe
mandarin - absorbs only, deaf to speak
september 27 - death of fat's mom
november 5 - fat's arrival here at shanghai
usb adapter - my gift from rheena :)

and the rest for next year :)

grown up fung

2005-12-23T12:17:00.000+08:00

im all grown up, i have to be away with my loved-ones for some reasons. quite hard to accept that someday i have to be independent. just awhile, i was talking with my mother on the phone, with her very worried voice, it triggerred tears like a rolling thunder on my face.

perhaps christmas is just a sleep away, this let me thought of things. my father prepares something for me and my bro a gift to open on christmas eve and spend "alot" of money for shopping new clothes for both of us. after that, we watch a christmas play in a mall. geez i remember i was sitting on my father's shoulder to see it. then on christmas day, we'll go fetch our gifts at lola's haus.

i was sick these days, fat was here to take care of me, rheena also. i remember, mother was awake the whole night to watch over my temp.

i learned to be alone piece by piece. on my first month here, i always imagine myself with them. when i was a kid, me and my bro crying out loud to go home, my mother left us to stay at lola's haus in tondo and sometimes she goes to province. lola wants to borrow us from our parents. me and my bro, cant sleep on other house without her. now i found myself here at shanghai spending time for window shopping, working, and making asar with my flatmates.

im getting old - and some says im still immatured. but little they know, im all grown up, close friends would prove it. we have a big adhesive attached to our parents. since me and my bro expose to matured world, we begin to walk without them. i see their hapiness if they saw us mingling with others without their consent. I see their worries when they dont know. at least my little sister justine who was born 7 years ago came along during these period.

now i realise its hard to be away. well i cant still conclude that this would be my first and last christmas spent away from them.

im only doing this for them.

its my turn to pay it forward.

bird flu

2005-12-10T15:24:00.000+08:00

my back and tummy aches. i cant bear with it. my two flatmates, fat and rheena took care of me last night. im thinking if rushing me to ER would be necessary since im me yo tian - no money in mandarin haha!

rheena was a great albularyo haha! she put plastics on my back with oil. she's saying this thing will absorb cold from my body. so i did since theres no harm on trying :)

i havent took a bath for 3 straight days now, i feel so sick. I have minor headaches and my tummy's full of gas, i want to fart hard to blow it out.

are these symptoms of bird flu? scary :-S

my want-to-have for christmas :)

2005-12-09T18:04:00.000+08:00

1. xbox360 - wow grabe ms employee di maka afford haler?
2. ps2 - planning to sell my junk ps one with my gba on chinese junk market. luge naman ako...
3. laptop - whatever the specs, i need this thing badly!
4. dvd player - believe or not, we dont have this yet.. ayaw pa sponsoran ni rheena haha! hati na tayo!
5. satellite - it cost sooo cheap but were still thinking :)
6. rollerblades - i want to try wearing this instead walking.
7. pair of rubber shoes from new balance or nike
8. wallet - i have to change my wallet cos its so malas to use it tsk tsk tsk... hehe!
9. winter wardrobe - yung expensive! im suffering back aches to death.
10. ipod nano - well, wala lang kasi ako maisip eh kaya dinagdag ko na to hehe!
11. yamaha XRM - yeah! uuwi ko sa bahay mag kano kaya tax?
12. DSLR - hay i almost forgot my photography addiction.
13. Salary Increase - halerrrr? pati ba naman to nasabi ko pa...
14. Kare kare - rheena kahit ito nalang gift mo hehehe! huy joke lang mag isip ka naman ng iba haha!
15. Remote Control Airplane - haha may nakita ako dito taena ang mura lang sa nanjing!
16. Sony walkman celphone - dunno the model but i know its orange :)
17. Rx7 - Ayos! or kahit na anong wheels then i will modify it to look as Rx7 hehe!
18. Good health - yup, the weather here rocks my health.
19. Peace of mind - sige na nga, hope one day when i wake up, everything will be smooth sailing.
20. Pair of roundtrip tickets - mismo! to go back home with fat and be with my famly this christmas and new year :(

taena mo!

2005-12-09T10:32:00.000+08:00

i want to curse someone who's so very mean, hindi lang sakin pati sa mga colleagues ko dito sa office. grabe walastik! confi na confi at proud na proud mag english pero nakamputcha ang accent, parang ngongong nag i-islang pa.

not just him but most of my calls are quite challenging. do i need to enroll for asian accent training?

OMG! here's another call, wish me luck...

what i've learned

2005-11-30T17:14:00.000+08:00

Ive learned that I can always pray for someone when I dont have the strength to help her in some other way. Yes its true. If I dont have any ways to help someone, I would pray for what's best for her. I know these are only trials and He may not give it if we cant.

visa issue

2005-11-23T14:40:00.000+08:00

shanghai government is getting too tight for foreigners. before you can get a working visa, you must go home from your land and process it there. quite difficult. i thought our friends will be here at shanghai too this next year, since they have this new policy, there's no chance for them to stay.

in fact, my visa is on process, but im not sure whether it skips the new policy. in case it didnt, we have to go back there! and stay for 2 weeks. not sure if that will be all expense paid by microsoft.

fat is having trouble with her visa, it will expire on the 5th next month. much worried cos its hard to be away again. we're doing things to figure this out. her company wont pay her expenses on going back there, very annoying. still, our fingers crossed if the other offer will be hers. that other might arrange her papers, if not, will go to EMOO and will pay 3500rmb for 1 year stay and multi entry. worst again, we may go home and be back to our propective lives. again, i will hunt for another 24/7 work.

im keeping my feet on the ground for this issue... gosh!

wanting something....

2005-11-18T15:55:00.000+08:00

i want the black one, i really want to have him. but im afraid to lose my savings. there will be enough but not that much. awwwww... :( i cant wait for more months, if i can have it today why not? ill be more contented once i have him, im so frustrated, he may take away my boredom here at shanghai. when can i have you? until when will i wait for you?

cold shanghai

2005-11-15T14:51:00.000+08:00

at this moment the temp lowered to 10 degrees. as the air swings down your body, you'll feel it deep down your bones. this temp started yesterday and it was fattie's birthday. she turned 25 and i hope she'll get more matured than me hehe!

sharon went here for a tour with his colleague, leslie who is sobrang kulit. i cant forget the way she said "straigth my hair" in chinese. and the way to piss them out saying "jang (jang-ina!)"

believe it or not, we havent yet received our "sweldo" for the month of october.

i got my health certificate for my working visa and i learned from the health check-up i had, i got this anemia that needs my attention to know the cause of it... scary!

i need to save more money since im planning to buy a ps2 for my pleasure. but im thinking twice if a satellite is more needed for my flatmates. (payment share is per flatmate, ps2 - my own expense hmmm satellite, i can be amused. ps2 is expensive.)

hahaha i forgot, i have to pay rheena since i owe her 3k bucks. (without this msg someone will react.) whew!

tomorrow is wednesday, i hope fat will hear something about her second interview. so she wont get idle no more!

by the way here's a glimpse of our flat and some pics taken past and last week:

Our bed

Sala

Di yan hotel ah

Sa labas pag umaga

Pag gabi, sosyal no?

Our place

Filipino Restaurant in Shanghai

Leslie Sharon Me Fattie and Rheena

Jason Rheena Sharon Leslie long hair

Subway

Birthday Girl

Birthday Cake

Birthday Visitors

Me and Fat

Look, she's coming!

2005-11-04T11:39:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah she's coming with me here at Shanghai. Well its been 3 mos for us not to see each other. Despite I was not with her on the devestated day of her life. Hope this could be a chance of a lifetime for her to kick off detractors. And for her to help the family who's in need. Hmm whatever the significant reason is, ill be just around... ;)

wake up

2005-09-29T16:29:00.000+08:00

going back home was a decision i am thinking as of this moment. but when i think of problems at home, it pursue me to stay more. mother told me to stay for 6 more months. significant told me to wait.

misunderstandings and misinterpretations was the subject since last week. i feel sick and cold it almost broke my dreams. sleepless nights and anxiety scares me. newly discover, i was so weak. realise everything, learned some lesson. crying like a baby. im so miserable.

afraid to lose. coward and weak. sincerity - my new job.

Goodbye

2005-09-27T14:03:00.000+08:00

I dedicate this blog to my second mom, Alicia Solomon. She left us today to rest in peace. It was so hard I was here in Shanghai and they are all there.

Im very worried to Fat, I know that its very difficult on her situation. I wish Im there to watch her, and give my shoulder for her to lean on.

Be strong and always think that mommy is with our creator, and He will take care of her.

Night Life in Shanghai

2005-09-07T16:58:00.000+08:00

a cocktail drink and tequila sunrise, 120 rmb
having fun with these brazilian dancers... priceless hehehe!

hey yah!

2005-09-06T12:19:00.000+08:00

at last! i can see my blog without using a proxy woohooo! im soo happy at least i can reply on your comments and i can update my blog! yippee! i could only do this when im here at the office. yeah im working now, tho before i was, i worked for an expat website but my salary was not that big. compare to this new one, i think i can earn much bigger if i can show my best. im working at microsoft shanghai global technical service support, dunno if the title was right but its part of the global site of MS so im very happy being part of their team. take note im the only foreigner on our team and all of them are chinese, no big deal cos they speak good english and very accomodating. medyo di ko lang maintindihan yung accent nila kasi syempre chinese nga! but they say there's alot of pinoys here but i havent met them yet. i started last monday so its my second day, training.... yeah petiks petiks muna ang beauty ko.

the coolest part here, you can drink all can. milk, soda, coffee, tea its free... no limits.

unlike from my previous call center office, sabay nag tagalog eh (baka maintindihan at gayahin dyan)... samin kasi bawal celphone, bawal kumain sa desk at lunok lang pahinga... dito.... astig kasi pwede kang kumain sa desk mo ng lunch, yun nga lang sisingaw mga ulam nila hmmm.. celphone pwedeng pwede kahit mag text ka habang may kausap walang pakielam at saka ang pinaka the BEST, yosi break anytime, tulog pag break time, after call anytime sa avaya yahooo!!! o meron ba nyan dyan!!! (attn: linksys and WEST) yun lang grabe sobrang saya...

Musta naman ang HOMESICK fung?

well im turning 1 month on sept 8, i realise if i will think of going back there in PH it would be a big failure my in life naks! saka my FAITH to GOD exist here. i use to talk with HIM in my idle time, pag nag yoyosi at pag magisa. especially when im sad. i know this is not my personality or i admit that before i dont often call HIM nor give thanks or pray.. here, since im currently away with my family, my faith gets stronger and powerful cos He's the reason why im here at microsoft Amen!

So pano ON THE AIR na po ako!

Etcetera

2005-08-15T21:51:00.000+08:00

ok while waiting for the sleeping pill effect, let me tell something i had experience here in shanghai. first, cost of living is so cheap, like on food, u can purchase a 1 kilo ground beef for 4 rmb (which in pesos, 1 rmb = P7.00) so just like that. utility bills for one month - 300-500rmb (with aircon) yun lang baba no?

source of transpo, subway, bus, the habal habal (a back rider to motorcycle for 10rmb everywhere in shanghai) and bike.

i bought a bike from carrefour - sikat yan dito... it cost 419rmb. she's cute and easy to use. i named her rose cos i cant think of any hehehe sorry im kindda drowsy na with the pill... im using her for my means of transpo going to my office at jiangsu rd. its safe to ride a bicycle. we have here a bicycle lane and bicycle rules and regulation. on my first day ang init kasi still summer pa rin dito ay autumn na pala syempre switching weather na. yan check her out!

At Carrefour Mall.. Im beggining to like her.

parking space sa kitchen namin

look the wheels...

im enjoying!

2005-08-14T23:51:00.000+08:00

hello guys! tho i sound to pretend happy, but im almost do like it... i been to some few known places here at shanghai. just take time to click this and this. lakwatsa to the max last saturday. we went to this famous pearl tv tower, one of shanghai's famous hotspot. i really cant believe i was there, cant believe i seen it on my naked eye.

then at night we go to a club full of expats. we met this filipino band, entertained me for the meantime to forget my sadness (with friends from accenture shanghai) they play nice. they almost okray those people who cant understand tagalog, we felt were in clowns (gaybar) since one of these singers is gay tho he's billingual... crowd was jampack.. we went home at past 2 am.

yeah its nice to explore but i dont want to catch myself of thinking again... minimize my frustrations. oh by the way, i have a work tomorrow.. another blogging thing!

wanted companion!

2005-08-11T08:49:00.000+08:00

thanks guys for your comments! i really cant put a comment of myself sa mga post ko cos im using an anonymous proxy to view my blog. now im glad at least i can do this bloggin' thing.

its my third day. yeah i have to be strong thanks! but somehow, i feel this emptiness and boredom since im left alone the whole day. i cant go outside cos no one knows how to speak english. and its sooo hot outside. its hard to get a cabbie to go out and see some places.

its not that hard or easy to get a job here. there's alot of offers for IT person like me, somehow there are some, offered me a salary of 17k convert to pesos but im thinking twice if ill grab this just to get busy. then will wait for my other application be processed from other employers/co.

im soooooo malungkot.... :(

shanghai, china

2005-08-10T14:28:00.000+08:00

well what can i say, im here! i just mention before that blogging is not possible but since there's quite problems with the laptop im using, i bet its the browser that wont allow me or might be the provider. i tried to different PC and it works.

rheena gave me an anonymous proxy to view the site, however, the limitations are, i cant comment, i cant stay long viewing which i dont know why and read only lang. i can log in to blogger but viewing is not possible to this wicked browser.

well my stay here is quite dramatic. my friends who owns this flat goes out for work and im alone the whole day. im still searching jobs online, some replied but i dont like their offer. IT jobs are in demand here but they need a billingual. there are some, im qualified, but im still waiting for their response.

sadness is my enemy, it knocks me off on evenings. homesick and tired of crying out loud alone here! i cried the whole afternoon yesterday hahaha! but i need to be brave and strong. if im sick and became tired of having this kind of life, i wanna go home till my visa dues!

Flight number PR 366

2005-08-06T16:59:00.000+08:00

sooo rainy, dark clouds, rainy afternoon, no lunch plus i didnt took dinner the night before my flight. with my mixed emotions, stomach grunting plus anxiety. i get sooo nervous with this immigration peeps who interrogated me and asked this very scary question "sayo ba tong passport mo?" whew! i immediately said yes, till i got confused and asked them why... they said my name was on their watchlist... with my innocent, naive face - haller??? i look like 15 yrs old kaya hahaha! ( i dont entertain reactions :0P )

while waiting for the right hour. i walked around on this mini duty free place. then bought a mag for my bliss on the plane... i didnt take lunch cos im expecting this steak on aboard with a glass of wine hehehe! (how i wish!)

i cried when someone calls me on my mobile. and still waiting...

12.30, still waiting, and waiting and waiting... until

i heard this voice saying "we regret to inform you that flight no. pr 366 manila-pudong shanghai is cancelled due to poor visibility and natural causes (typhoon) "

im back home! yippeee! my next flight would be probably this monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday or probably this coming saturday :)

sino kaya kumokontra? hahaha!

Farewell Epacific

2005-07-28T18:12:00.000+08:00

Now at last, this is what im waiting for, saying my farewell to everybody (ouch!). Today’s my last day at work. Tho its my last day, I wont forget all my responsibilities here at the office, like my tasks, new or old, must finish it as soon as I can. Document all the things for a proper turnover.

I wanna thank everyone, especially the web team of epacificglobal on giving me a chance to be part of their group. At first I thought its tough, but theyre all nice, sige, ill make isa-isa on thanking them, mala-kangel’s confession haha!

First to thank is Rheena Castillo a.k.a buyay/cute_royale, this bud is my reason of working. yeah! Cos she recruit me here to work as internet researcher. At first I said my html skills are plain basic until she told me that everything could be learned in days. So as time goes by, she introduced Search Engine Optimization. Wow! nice to hear, pero honestly, I don’t know it. So what I did is to listen kahit minsan nag aaway na kami hahaha! I owe this person alot! Thanks and you know it!

Epacific gave me a chance to meet my long lost cousin Reah Bunsoy a.k.a blueberry. We’re schoolmates sa elementary (st.ann) and she’s our copywriter. So as I applied my chismosa skills, I ask for her middle name. Siguro, I just cant start up a conversation with her kaya I asked her a stupid question, “ano yung M na middle initial mo?” til she said “de mesa”, then I told her, “oh yeah? I have relatives na de mesa sa mandaluyong nga eh” so yun, we found out na we’re 2nd or 3rd gen cousins hahaha! Small world no?

Ah this one caught my attention. Slim, sophisticated and the lunch? Whew weird! and healthy. Aileen Oracion a.k.a ying the gymaholic! I dunno how many times she goes for a workout but I think she’s obsessed on having “packs” on her tummy. She’s generous. My satan-like laugh catches her attention too. She’s our graphic designer/seo specialist/business woman? Yeah! She’s selling everything that will make your body fit. Ebay, petster, and neopets are tasks she wont forget aside from gym. Hope she wont forget my bilin (pampatangkad pills haha!)

Karen Labustro a.k.a keyren, ka-karen, kangel, the barrel girl? I admire her, really! I dunno her boiling point when everybody piss her. Tho there are moments of walk out’s (pantry girl) she never broke a promise she told me, that she’ll never be pissed! As what everyone says in the team “beware she might put a blog about u” and being sentimental, she’ll never forget to laugh hard!

This quiet but terrible Jill Fernandez keeps on bugging me for a drink session. I asked her "why?". Nothing… gusto nya lang! with a smile on her face. But she asked me like she had a big problem that only tequila can solve it. She’s very quiet working but loud when chatting. We’re almost building a trust since sometimes we talk of some things we want to be kept as secret!

Now let me share my experiences sa boys ng webteam…

At first I though its hard to be with these guys. With their deceiving looks, I was wrong for my first impression. Andre Rubio was the first guy I approach about music. We discuss things about these rock bands. Marc Mendoza a.k.a marc puti was my former love team mate. They keep on teasing me to marc and we dont know why (so hindi nag click, natigil haha!). These two, andre and marc gave me chance to show my skills in SEO and adobe photoshop. With this site http://www.free-online-business-directory.com/ we became close :)

When it comes to technical question, I ask Reggie Baclit about it, He’s quiet working like Jill. Their difference, he’s poised working, starring on the monitor, holding the mouse but look on his eyes, get near to him and you’ll hear him snoring haha! Reggie was key-ren former love team haha!

Jason Anonuevo a.k.a kenshira, the barrel man according to Robin, chick magnet ng web team. Ask this guy about new gadgets. He knows well than me. We became close when I asked him about digicams. Now we share new ringtones, mpegs and mp3’s with our celphones.

If batman goes out with robin, Robin a.k.a sleep-zero have Raul Gulla. They’re partners in pissing. The ebony of web team. He’s soo funny, I use to piss off this guy with his admiration to reah. A hopeless romantic, wala na raw syang pag asa. He’s galante, he use to treat us like pizza (once lang at di na naulit) and French fries (twister fries na para sana kay reah haha!) He let me borrow his burner for my mp3 back up.

Ryan Samson, celebrity kid, He’s blessed to have these pair of converse chuck taylor limited edition styles. Siguro If we could be close pa talaga, he might gave one. Pero wala eh. At least I had chance of meeting him.

The manager – Joel Bauca, one of who possess a deceiving looks sa team. I really didn’t thought that he’s approachable, joker and sentimental. He’s nice tho my first impression is suplado. He’ll teach everything to you, tell stories and experiences of his childhood and syempre, he’s pissing me to death! He’s kindda doubted of my personality, insisting of something I did which I don’t, laughs hard with his big tummy haha! I thank him for being a great manager.

Robin Go a.k.a sleep-zero, I like the way he teases everybody. I see myself to him. I know his jokes are pastimes for his boredom but he might be seeking some attention like having a girlfriend or personal problem. He's obsessed with my white nape hehehe or he just make fun of it. He’s our senior web designer and thru him I learn how to crop images on adobe.

Last but not the least, I thank Marc Macalua, my Boss on letting me show the world of Search Engine Optimization. Smart-ass, very thoughtful, caring and understanding to employees like me. Hope you’ll take care of Sharm! Wot I can say to this guy is ahmm.. hehe! ah basta yun na yon haha! I’ll try next year to visit Manila on summer for another Puerto Galera outing hahaha!

Now as I leave epacific, I wont forget all the things you taught me. If 6 months was not enough for my stay with ya’ll, at least with these things, experiences, moments with you guys, all I have to do is to treasure and reminisce that once in my life I found this team that rocks! Thanks to you all!!!

blogspot issue

2005-07-26T00:37:00.000+08:00

i think its time for me to start saying farewell my dear blogger since ill be destined to a place of primitives. yeah! so who wants to volunteer on updating this blog? of course ill give the full access.

well i had no choice, i raised this issue to blogspot. andrea of technical support says there's no solution since this primitive country has blocked blogspot sites. wots with blog-spot anyway? wot's blocking it? is it the word "blog" which means free speech since its a communist country? or spot like g-spot? well woteva the reason, i had no choice but to let someone update this. errr! i had no chance on viewing too, tho sending me a screenshot might help me. buying a domain? no way, since i can avail this free eh!

im planning to move this blog to another account, ill try soon as i get there. oh bloody shit photobucket not allowed too errr!

i see myself bored. how could i share things, new experiences and stories?

mannnn im so pissed!

lumpiang shanghai

2005-07-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

at last my taste buds are satisfied! went dinner for a plate of pork sisig and a hot sinigang (sour, goodluck gastro-entiritis.. dont know the right spelling) nice weather, rainy, gloomy and windy afternoon.

i was thinking of next month or this coming weeks. will ill be happy with my decision? im kindda excited tho depression is waiting ahead of me. promise ill tell ya'll wot i mean once its confirmed. but yeah it is. im just waiting for the right time to vanish on my seats.

these completes me!

2005-07-14T18:52:00.000+08:00

okay ill imitate what buyay have on her blog. mine here listed are things/people/places involved in my life...

nintendo family computer, barbie and ken, chinese garter and ten twenty, pizza hut and max's fried chicken, 415 novaliches quezon city, makati, sofia st. balut tondo manila, archie and jughead comics, st ann academy linggo ng wika, choose your own adventure books, farmer's cubao, nkotb - new kids on the block, ate maje and tita bing, PPEI, michelle gavieres, casper the movie, A&W greenbelt, mcdonalds french fries, makati medical center and st. lukes hospital, foo fighters, beastie boys and sonic youth concert with ate maje, oasis, weezer, silverchair and suede cassette tapes, my sony walkman, prank calls, glorietta, KC and Joan, phone addict in the making..., monette at antipolo, flordelis st, nsat review wrecker, bivoac sa sacramento tanay rizal, aquafresh toothpaste ni KC, fattie, my boo song with 25 cents, 21st west rembo ft bonifacio, ticket, chakra band vocalist (more to loose, dancing with myself) february 22, 1996 and the rest of the month, august 22, 1997 - stranded, PWU and STI, lhet2x, laol, acel and jam, kimzel, colt 45, lloyd and chris, nokia 3210, winston lights, marlboro menthol, mcdonalds la salle, st paul, i forgot the name ng "motel" somewhere in pasay (tripping), egi condo, why do u build me up buttercup, banting st. sta ana, h2O bar, introduction to trance, 78 orange, EFGHIJKLMQRSTUVWXYZ, st. michael school, addict sa COUNTERSTRIKE! uncle bob's greenhills, yahoo messenger, an affair to remember in irving texas, buyay a.k.a cute_royale, padi's point jupiter (hehe yuppies!) ortigas center, robinson's galleria and megamall, starbucks and seattle's best, G4 and greenbelt 3, powerplant, mountains of batangas, north face, ross and NT @ watering hole, august 9 sa malate, concordia college night class, eastwood city libis, link2support, integrated technical support, linksys-cisco, wireless, WPC11 grrrr!, registry edit, adora and team jazz, paintball @ enchanted kingdom, sariaya quezon, west contact center, cbl_ramof, noc_tony, oakwood premiere hotel, near window seats sa west, UTT with mau, sleeping lounge, wwb_nuna, wbb_cleo, wbb_cells, wbb_pard, wbb_rosa, obssesion to e-gadgets, my ipod20gb, adik sa shopping! ePacific global contact center, SEO with ying, reah (long lost cousin) and buyay, google and the rest of search engines, macromedia and adobe, puerto galera I and II, and the rest are still in the making.... ü

my point of view (walang kokontra!)

2005-07-08T17:01:00.000+08:00

im not into politics but since i cant think of something to share here, lets begin... it seems that our kababayan's tired with these rallies, revolutions and impeachments. sorry i dont know what im saying but since im the owner of this blog, let me be hehe!

as what ive observed, things are getting heavy for us (fare hikes, gas, food etc). Then for us workers, wage is still the same. so who gets the benefits? investors? business owners yeah maybe.

now we seen everyone wants the president to resign. yeah go and resign! lets see what happens to our country. then if not, lets give her a chance to decide whats best. if i where the president ill go for martial law haha! then lets see... this time im no longer a baby to witness it. yes! haha sorry for being rude... see the dollar rate? i had this mistake, i was waiting for this moment last last week pa! (a month ago) now it increased to 2 peso arrrggghh! sayang kaines!

what if she declare martial law? may call center pa kaya? would there be graveyard shift? then everyone will call for a revolution. wow! tapos theyll be scattered along edsa so in short, holiday, no work. alright! my chance to sleep all day. hohummm.... zzzZz..ZZZZ...Zzzz..

infinite sadness

2005-07-04T19:06:00.000+08:00

i should write something here, like what happen, where, how... okay then lets start....

let me share this - its not true that you can write "only" when youre inspired (yeah right!) desperate people can tell stories too! like me hehe! dont ask, everyone knows, sadness is not on my vocabulary, no one knows, im a meloncolie too.

sadness, i feel this when i have mess, mess for me are things that corrupts my mind. something that drives me crazy. something that wants me to hear sad songs while lying on my bed at wee hours.

others says im a kind of person who fills up their emptiness, they wont experience any dull moments with me. but have someone ask me lately if i feel the same way too? none.. cos they know i love telling infinite jokes, pissing them off till they cry out loud to stop me..

okay im getting too serious here. but since i have this big cake in my mind, at least ive shared a piece of it here. enjoy!

jam's birthday

2005-06-29T23:14:00.000+08:00

it was a post celebration held at abhy's house. yeah i went there tho we had issues before. ive thrown those things since were getting older now, i dunno with them if they do hehe! pictures can be seen here!

jamalia alawiya - barkada's bet for every big deal! for her, money is just a thing to put on every shopping paper bag. down to earth, humble with a shoulder to cry on. Islam was not a hindrance to our friendship. very approachable, a leader with an attitude and a dean's lister. I met her in college thru monette and fattie. They were classmates at PWU. With her cousin laol, we go out, house parties with pancit canton was one of our hobbies aside from shopping. They dont care wearing their bonets and belo with a flock of christians. she look like sheryl cruz, isnt it?

jam's quite matured. unlike before, she go ga-ga over fashion. i and fat are her fashion guru's. fat - her bestfriend goes out together, like going somewhere in makati to fetch someone haha! lettter A was special to her, they lasted for 8 years i think. and it was tragic. (aminin!)

soon, like next year, i can do everything to anyone, putting a gun over someone's face wont be difficult with a little politics in the making.... happy birthday smart ass lawyer!

no more braces!

extravagant fung

2005-06-21T19:45:00.000+08:00

i bought a Nokia 6230 last weekend. hope this phone may last for years cos i notice i change units every years. its so compact and i would say all my needs are bundled in one. bluetooth, extended memory, radio and MP3 player - yes but u need to upgrade memory up to 128 mb.

right now i couldnt ask for more hehe! ipod, digicams, latest shoes.. yeah for the "meantime" im contented. i admit im kindda materialistic into things i can afford. its not a sin to dream having this and that. at least i pursue myself to buy my own. these are my weaknesses. ill do my best to buy one for my satisfaction. at least i dont bring my cash on spending drugs. money means a lot to me! i must buy something for keeps or spend it with a cause for my family or who is needy.

at least now i realise and i almost limit my spendthrift attitude.

being sentimental

2005-06-16T21:27:00.000+08:00

no one ever imagined. they never believe, other says im just making attention. maybe im secretive or vain.

its not just money hello? thats everyones desire... no-no family issues ..

got hint?

for me everything goes, as long as my head spins, im happy. as long as i ate trice a day, with 10 hours sleep IM HAPPY.

this time i know its real

2005-06-08T22:04:00.000+08:00

closing the door, how i thought i was sure, with what i wanted in my life.
cutting the ties that found both of our lives im just too blind to realise,
i was chasing a fantasy and hurting the one who never hurt me
this time i know its real, God only knows ive been so lonely without you.
give me the chance to hear, please take me back cant go on living without your love.

day after day, i try to think of a way to let you know i was wrong
thinking maybe youre safe, things will work out OK, just come back, back where u belong
yes im willing to swallow my pride, cos baby thats how learning works inside
after all of the lost, ive been down..ive been searching for what ive already found...

bad grasses dont die

2005-06-06T21:12:00.000+08:00

i really dont know where i got this migraine, what triggers it and how it came to my system. (inherited, i dont think so?) last year i went to an optometrist (not sure of the spelling) and had an eye check up. i was thinking it could be my eyes causing it, my grade could be higher than i expect.

dr. cua from st lukes told me i had to wear eyeglasses, but im not that happy wearing it. (i look like nerd) he diagnose my eyes with lasers etc. and the result, my eye grade was not the culprit of every head aches and he's reffering me to consult a neurologist!!!!

this weekend i had a worst headache. chills and dizzy fellin struck me with this ache attack. maybe because im tired, stressed or lack of sleep? pain killers like paracetamol and mefenamic acid cant tolerate the pain. this morning i took 2 tabs of 500mg mefenamics. on saturday, im scheduled for a check up, im quite afraid to discover something, i dont want to take alot of medicines, it taste sucks! what if soon ill be dying? who'll be updating this blog? will someone tell everyone that im dead?

so little time...

2005-06-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

star wars in greenbelt 3, yeah for 160 pesos. price's worth with free hersheys smores chocolates. encountered the social climbers saying they wont waste time falling in line for free chocolates. not a big deal. it depends on a person who's craving it. believe me, they just pretend cos everyone likes free...

oh i have a picture taken wearing a jedi suite and holding the lightsaber (courtesy of canon). unfortunately, i havent scanned it..

my tummy's aching... 2 hours to go ill be on my way home! im having a mid-shift. still taking visibility reports and a lil' SEO pages.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

I dont like mondays (esp monday night)

2005-05-24T02:29:00.000+08:00

its 2.35 am, and Im still a lil' awake, yeah wake up! hope creating this blog awakes my sleeping veins. to tell ya'll, IM HERE AT THE OFFICE. oh yeah boy! Im having my graveyard shift. tho ive felt sweaty sleeps in the afternoon... do i have a choice?

i cant nibble these nacho chips. im sleepy na... wake me up wake me up... oh there goes 1 sheep jumping off the monitor, oh there's another sheep jumping off, another one, and another and another, and another, and anot...ZZzZzzzZzzZZzz....Zzz...ZzzZ... . . .

my fit

2005-05-17T14:16:00.000+08:00

i thought ill be bedridden for days with this lousy colds caught from i dont know where. its sooo disguisting, i cant breathe, i bark the whole office hours and this diarrheal struck me, i dont know what it triggers (hmmm i think its milo freeze) loperamide tabs sucks, it taste mint, i cant imagine meds favored mint yuck! I think im unhealthy. am i?

Errrrr!

2005-05-11T15:07:00.000+08:00

I feel paranoid. My mind is riding on a time machine, I think of something that triggers to raise my arm hairs and a flying butterfly in my stomach haha! Maybe Im just hungry... I hope!

What face would you imagine if I turn 77 years old?

Just Things

2005-05-10T12:19:00.000+08:00

A lot of things happened. We went to Monet's niece baptismal. I was their photographer, here are the pix.

At last, Minsally gave birth to a healthy and cute girl NAHAYA. Our first baby in barkada. Just take a look of her pictures, we noticed that her eyes look like Rosalie's. She's hairy and sleeps all day (syempre baby eh) But her mom, Minsally look awfull with her stitch pains. I had a hard time to take pictures, I mean Laol and her baby, what she's worried about was I might post it on FRIENDSTER and show her wasted picture to her EX.

Last week, I was assigned to graveyard shift. I felt the difference, working on a call center and working on a non-pressured work. I had a good time, I saved money, time ticks fast, I can put my head down on my keyboard if I feel dizzy sleepy or in short I can take a short nap to refresh.

Now ask me about after shift? DUH.... Heat at the middle of sleep. Sweaty and uncomfy. I look frustrated to catch sleep, big eyebags.

Everyone knows that Im a freaking sleepy head. Where ever u put me, I can sleep in my own way.

Okay here's what I got.. Promise! I didnt mean this. Taken at Virra Mall Bazaar, I was looking for something at the top, tiptoed and forcing myself to reach it with my blurry eyes. I was careless, I dont care where Im holding just to see it. My friend took a picture of me, and laughing. I thought, they were laughing because of my height. The reason????

INDUSTRY FINDER

2005-04-29T15:13:00.000+08:00

dyou see it? dont pretend youre blind! I have a favor, would u mind to click it and surf in.. dont just look at them! go click it!!! i know, the first icon is cute, of course yes, i made that design! tho i keep on bugging kaye-ren and ying for some instructions.

4WI SEO and WEB
a break for a web-dummy to learn. im learning piece by piece.those HTML codes in dreamweaver? ha! i thought i need to memorize those mess, believe me my technical support friends, i can create a doorway page! tho sometimes i feel crippled without someone's help hehe! i really want to set myself into graphic designing. i love colors, im a thinker who thinks outside a box. i need to have an ample time on learning it.

Graphics Prodigy
visit this site: http://www.free-online-business-directory.com and look at the header. see those buildings? ha! thats what im saying, i created that with my idea. tho i sound pathetic, i just cant express of being proud that i can. i want to focus on web design or anything with art, graphics etc. for all who dont know me yet, im a gay haha joke! ok, what i want to say is im an art lover. yun lang thats all la la la!

by the way i would like to say thanks to my co-members, andrei and marc for their effort and generosity on giving me a chance to learn things on creating this soon-to-be monster web directory.

cHaNgE

2005-04-26T10:41:00.000+08:00

its difficult and complicated. but if i set something on my mind, like finding a reason for change, then it could be as easy like ABC.

unexpected

2005-04-22T16:51:00.000+08:00

im falling inlove with my bed and pillows. I got sleep last night at 7pm. deep slumber with no pee-interruptions. I almost skip an episode of Darna... yeah im watching it, riding to my lola's everyday tube-life instead caught on being ignorant with these primetime soap opera marathon.

I dream of unexpected moments with my friends, a phonecall from an unexpected person and a trip to nowhere. i wont call it a nightmare but a journey, its a sign like something will happen if I disregard. A wake up call for things around me and an eye opener to face the reality.

Puerto Galera II

2005-04-14T08:23:00.000+08:00

this year of 2005, I was given a chance to visit galera twice. yes twice, but this time its kindda boring. i dunno why, maybe because the place we rented was too far from the beach and takes a 15 mins walk to get there, how about going back on the beach?

I failed to see stars at night and i got sleep at 8.30 pm... worst of all, we experience brownouts. despite of sweats, i made a deep straight slumber till 8am. cash is not an issue, i spent a little tho. yeah still banana shake but no more banana boat, others did but my excuse is, I dont want to get wet hehe! I had a massage, relaxing. I snork around for my obsession to see nemo or patrick but im afraid of corals to hit my skin. i just dont want to get bumps and wounds. im "maarte" that time haha! just look at the pix below. that's courtesy of my new digicam. going back there? not anymore.

Views

Enjoying the sand

Sunset

Long Beach, snorkling place.

My bliss

Ready for snorkling

Confusion

2005-04-06T15:16:00.001+08:00

I was thinking of something, that something is kindda blurry when I picture it on my mind. maybe Im trying to think of something that will help to fill up this blog message. or maybe Im sleepy so to cover up my drowsiness, typing these words might awake me. hello! look at me... Im typing!

If you want to know how I feel today? Im disturbed, why? I dunno...
Its hard to escape, you can run but you cant hide!
When could I find the answers to all my question? Im waiting!
basta ewan ko ba...

back from a not so long vacation

2005-03-29T15:46:00.000+08:00

i spend holyweek sleeping all day. i never tried fasting. also, to tell ya'll, i lost my ipod for trade. my precious one together with the soundtrack of my life. now, I posess a sony cybershot digicam. at least this time I wont borrow anyone's cam just to explore. I tested it this holyweek. some shots are not too good cos its just my first time. i miss my ipod.... ill try my best to provide myself one. soon

In your dreams, Fung... In your dreams... (Part 2)

2005-03-17T15:43:00.000+08:00

My horoscope for today... Very ANNOYING! ( from a cheap newspaper...)

Do I need to get affected? I still have my IPOD 20gb to swap or sell and have it! Besides, If I cant have both, At least I have one! ... (my precious IPOD)

In your dreams, Fung... In your dreams...

2005-03-15T14:37:00.000+08:00

My desire is to buy this Digicam Im holding! From the manufacturers of Fujifilm comes their state of the art Fujifilm Finepic 4.0 10x zoom and as I observed, kahit magalaw yung subject mo, captured clear parin. When can I have this? Im no longer working on a call center to afford and purchase it after 3 pay days... No more favors from abroad since its too expensive, otherwise if someone will give it as a gift "why not?? hellow?"... Rob a bank? Overload my credit card til I sink and have piles of utangs? Sell my precious 20 GB IPOD til I found myself lonely without music? Sell other precious gadgets I kept for years? In my dreams....

My life will be contented with this, promise! I wont ask for more....

Exploring my IDLE ARTISTIC MIND

Puerto Galera March 12-13

2005-03-15T13:51:00.000+08:00

I went here couple of times already. This time, I had this banana boat experience together with my banana shake served to me before we left the place. It was my first time to arrive PG at 7 am. We never spoiled the first day, tho I was quite sleepy. We explored the beach up to the cave. Yeah I was thinking of going inside that mysterious cave since folks says someone died inside that creepy hole. I never think twice of trying. I hate risky stuffs now, Im a better-changed person hehehe! ( was that a right word duh?)

For MORE PICTURES just click HERE

Were planning to back on April 9. That time, I wish I could bring along my own snorkle and goggles, extra pennies for shoppping... dine in to Manalo's for their nice pork and chicken kebabs, spend more time on star gazing cos medyo sleepy na kame at around 12 am eh. Hmm how about flying fish?

No excuses

2005-03-14T09:19:00.000+08:00

I just discovered that Reah (officemate) was my long lost cousin ( father side) sa middle initial ng lolo ko.. ( De Mesa) When she's bored ( especially pag alang task dito sa ofis..) she takes pictures using ericsson t610 ( resolution 50% of 100, style 60%) . Parang i wanna replace na my motorola V300.. Hmmm this mid year, (I hope) I might purchase the one with bluetooth.. (save money first..) Any model will do, so I can explore my idle artistic mind (naks!)

Here's one of her samples. Actually I pose to imitate our corp wallpaper. The theme is No Excuses, dunno what it means but its kindda annoying if youre boss says this especially when there's a reasonable excuse.. Excuse me Duh? Im going to hell, wanna come?

This describes me when Im piss off and wont accept my excuse...

no more calls..

2005-03-03T17:28:00.000+08:00

my tummy's grunting, its like dyspepsia (wateva da spelling..)

for the record, im no longer an agent, or should i say call center agent (pronounced "cohcenner aygent") with an accent.. i missed tha word dude! if dont make sense duh? thank you for calling yada-yada my name is what.... longing for noc_tony that pretends to be smart but a**hole tech freako, hang outs at PODIUM for break.. UTT that stands for Under Time Tayo, forever KFC thigh part and glorietta ( tho i live nearby this place..) avaya phones, public plantronics with dried saliva (on mouth piece errr yuck!) illegal browsing, JOBSTREET, JOBSDB.. vendo machine with dried mangoes ( sorry anne, i never made my promise to buy one for you..) Export Plaza Bldg. my taxi days, flat screen from DELL ( it minimized my migraine) coffee sa pantry for sleepy moments, TOTAL ACCESS 2004 & 2005 ( this software drives me NUTS..) then youll hear frustrations of a CX ( customer ) says "damn you people! you say uninstalling and upgrade to 2005 wont erase my address book from TA mailbox!" then youll pretend "oh it may help uninstalling your previous Total Access then reinstall it back.." then CX says " well, i dunno where to get it?" me pretends again "will send you the latest TA2005! ( with a glad voice cuz youve found a tricky solution..) then, CX will call back again to say " I wanna cancel my fucking account! (kase registration failed lage hahaha!) hay! nakakamiss rin..

the best of all things i miss, are my friends who dearly misses me too ( naks parang totoo) no more fung that cracks jokes, no more hampas from maurilin ( special mention cuz special child to.) no more wbb_besi who piss everyone on vIRC.. syempre miss ko rin my unique chat handle cbl_ramoF.. mga unpreditable QA ( ehem, i got 100 straight scores lang naman in a row kaya..) frustrations of being promoted, and my high paid SALARY... ( yeah you read it right...)

if you ask me where im working? wait and see for more changes that will happen on this blogger.... that will be it.... see those pictures? next in line is to rank one on google...

hasta la vista

My dear blogger...

2005-03-01T18:33:00.000+08:00

alot of months past, i have never visited my blog plus i almost forgot my password. its been a while for me..

just wanna share, i got an ipod last year. a christmas and birthday present. it was shipped from arlington, va and brought door to door by UPS. ive paid 100 dollars for shipping. i never thought of those flilthy bureau of customs to charge me. but ups told if i wont pay it within a week, my ipod might screwed up.

mt. manabo

2004-10-28T05:25:00.000+08:00

october 23-24 we went to batangas and climbed the peaks of malipunyo. we did traverse hike and it was a great exercise for me. i was with fat, and i didnt expect she can make it.

we spend the whole day of saturday above mt. manabo. it was so hot and it almost darken my skin. not much since we spent the day staying inside the tent.

HECTIC SKED

2004-10-14T04:59:00.000+08:00

my plans this coming mid october and november. and hope thru this I WONT FORGET.

october 15, 2004
my payday, have to pay bills for phone, deposit to credit card, savings and things for the upcoming climb. my grandma's bday, sana pumunta sya. whatelse? hmmm wala na.

october 23-24, 2004
meet at 5 am, on board to lipa batangas. by october 22 i should be packed up, fat will crash at home. ano pa ba? ah! call my good office for an absent advise hehehe.

november 6-7, 2004
planned puerto galera trip with my officemates. another future absent for 2 days...

schedules might change without prior notice...

show me the way to your heart...

2004-10-13T06:53:00.000+08:00

I guess you think you really know me
I keep all the secrets you've told me.
We're such good friends... That's where it ends
But at night when I'm dreaming, you hold me!!!

Maybe we've known each other too long,
We've laughed and you've cried on my shoulder...
Why can't you see, this change in me,
Won't you say it's not too much to hope for!!!

Show me the way to your heart!
Won't you lead me all the way to your heart!
My emotions are too strong to resist,
And together we've journey this for,
Take me to your heart...

I may be my imagination.
But when we just touched you were shaking?!
Oh can it be... you feel like me...
If you do baby, don't keep me waiting... Just take me to your heart...

a day for all

2004-10-02T06:34:00.001+08:00

nice to be back again. i came from cable training for 2 weeks, and now still entertaining macintosh dummies. im quite satisfied because im happy for all the outcomes happened these past few weeks and days.

im planning to buy a digital camera from sony, the one with 4.1 megapixels. maybe later if i have time...
i have a comment with my shoes from gbx, its their new design, recently release and it was sooo disgusting! if u have these pair of shoes, i advised u not to use it on a rainy day. i was walking on the lobby and i slipped off. so it could be deadly if you slipped off with your head. i could be crippled with these so better wear it on casual warm day.

SLUMBUK

2004-09-20T09:29:00.000+08:00

Part 1: Basics

1.NICKNAME - fung or jenn
2.SEX - F
3.BIRTHDATE - January 3
4.WHERE DO YOU LIVE - makati
5.HEIGHT - 5"_
6.SHOE SIZE - 61/2
7.FIRST CRUSH - i have when i was in sixth grade. memorable yun kasi i go crazy hahaha
8.RIGHTY OR LEFTY - lefty kasi i write using my left hand
9.WHATS YOUR SIGN - capricorn
10.WHATS THE FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU- innocent type pero when u get to know me you'll regret it. i am everyone's nightmare when it comes to pissing hehehe.
11.EVER BEEN IN LOVE - everyday im in love
12.PUPPY LOVE - previous believer
13.HAVE A TATTOO - i planned to have one like yung parang kay george clooney sana. siguro henna nalang
14.CRUSH - meron, many to mention hehehe

Part 2:Food
1.CHOCOLATE MILK OR HOT CHOCOLATE- hot choco, too sweet kase if u add milk.
2.MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING - mcdonalds kasi sarap nung fries
3.COKE OR PEPSI - coke
4.ROOT BEER OR CALI - root beer basta may float
5.TEA OR COFFEE - coffee, pag hindi ako matae siguro tea
6.MILK/DARK/WHITE CHOCOLATE - milk chocolate bar
7.VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE - ano ba to puro chocolate wala bang salty?
8.CAKE OR PIE - i prefer junk foods...

Part 3:Pick one
1.MARRY PERFECT FRIEND OR PERFECT LOVER - perfect lover
2.CATS OR DOGS - both
3.1 PILLOW OR 2 - i have mood swings, normally i choose 2 but if i have "soy sauce" in my head i prefer pillow
4.W/ OR W/O ICE - with ice basta hindi tap water yun ice.
5.TOP OR BOTTOM - everyone rules if youre at the TOP!
6.WINTER/SPRING/SUMMER/FALL- i choose fall for sleeping and sweeping.
7.SKIING OR BOARDING -bOarding.
8.BIKING OR BLADING -wala bang sleeping nalang
9.ROCK/RAP/R&B/PUNK/ALT/SKA/TECHNO/SWING - alternative rock
10.NIGHT OR DAY - night for sleeping, day for work.
11.VEST OR MITTENS - mitten ang cute..
13.BUNK OR WATER BED - water bed soggy.
14.MAKE PLANS OR GO ALONG - i make plans first for advance thinking.
15.TRUTH OR DARE - dare
16.MTV OR VH1 - MTV
17.OCEAN OR POOL - ocean or beach, pool puro ihi
18.SHOWERS OR BATHS - bath para matanggal mga libag.
19.LOVE OR LUST - lust pede?
20.SILVER OR GOLD - gold
21.DIAMONDS OR PEARLS - diamond
22.PENCIL OR PEN - pen
23.SUNRISE OR SUNSETS - sunset for photography stuff
24.BLIND OR DEAF - deaf, since action speaks louder than voice

Part 4:Favorites
1.COLOR - everything blue, white and black.
2.NUMBER - 22 syempre
3.SUBJECT - science saka recess, dismissal
4.SHOE BRAND - kickers, diesel kaso panget na mga designs nila at least i bought 1 nice style saka nike for rubber shoes
5.SPORT TO PLAY - wall climbing lang talaga for pre climbs
6.ANIMAL - i have 1 domestic cat and 1 dog name ayame
7.HOLIDAY - christmas
8.FAVORITE LINE FROM A MOVIE - "cheetae!!! ganda lalaki!! ulul!! panget!! panget!! - starzan by rene requestas
9.BAND - then: blur, weezer, oasis, pulp, ash, suede, now: maroon 5, hoobastank
10.MOVIE - all rene requeistas movies, vanilla sky the best yan saka butterfly effect.
11.PLACE TO CHILL - sa ref nalang

Part 5:Future
1.HOW MANY KIDS - depende na sa lifestyle
2.COLLEGE : dream ko sa stanford kaso mahirap lang kame eh.. huhuhu!
3.JOB - gynecologist,surgeon kaso napunta sa computers eh
4.WHAT IS YOUR IDEAL FUTURE PARTNER LIKE? - knows how to cook, resourceful yun lang ok na...

Part 6:Would you?
1.MOVE ANYWHERE - yup
2.DYE YOUR HAIR - no
3.MEET ONE FAMOUS PERSON - adolf hitler
4. NAME ONE PERSON YOU LOVE - my significant other
5.NAME ONE THING THAT EMBARRASSES YOU - no, nothing... im confident hehehe
6.DO YOU LIKE SCHOOL - depends on what we study.
7.DO YOU LIKE TALKING ON THE PHONE - yeah i spend the whole night, till dawn on pissing, fooling (hahaha!) someone.

Bridal Shower

2004-09-07T07:26:00.000+08:00

we went on discovery suites for my friend's shower party. ok sa food, lahat almost fave ko. syempre made by quickay yun cook namin all the time since birth! that party was like reunion ng mga colleagues ko before sa linksys. room's like home. i did stole some of the soaps except yung lampshade kasi it wont fit on my knapsack eh. pero sayang yung robe sana ni-nenok ko na rin.

everyone's busy on cooking, preparing games, talking like they never talked before saka changing attire for the party. all of them had their best sleepwears. ako dala ko yung daster ng lola ko. well i dont care, i feel its best and special cos it was a pamana from my lola.

we hired 2 gigolos and 1 pimp. they arrived at time, they smell like they came from a gay parlor and an old face powder from their lola. they grind hard for money and these guys thought for our arousal, but no! it was like a porn movie went to suspense and thriller. pano, everytime one of the gigolos goes to a place where all of my friends seated, they scream from the top of their lungs. these guys danced for 4 sets, 3500 ang talent fee. first set was seducing the bride, striptease tapos they went 3 times sa CR to masturbate. well thats what i think of, tapos they took out their briefs and that's it. everyone witnessed it, i took my friend's penlight, focus it on their thingy hahaha! so my friends had chance to observe the reality. hmmm i feel like im contributing this for ladies confession ha?

CHANGES

2004-09-01T13:23:00.000+08:00

i was trained for broadband last august 23 and sobrang saya cos we make petiks lang on class. i spent the whole week on chatting and i almost forgot my blogger. i watch webcams and i found out chatters who make hubad in front of the cam. tapos wala akong na learn sa broadband dun sa trainer namin, pero on my own, im used to it na, im a fast learner no, so why i need to have trainings? gosh! anyways at least i rested talking like a parrot for 1 week. and rested my ears from the dirty headsets. grabe with regards to that dirty headsets it made my ears itchy, baka i might get galis pa yuck! ginagamet pa sya ng mga agent who have ear infections, yun may luga? like bavarian in donuts. now wala parin ako magagawa about this problem. gagamit parin ako ng headset na dirty.

after training, i had 3 days off. i spent it nice. i watched the stepford's wives and its nice. then sunday, i found something that changed my life. and a bit scary. and a dream that changes my mind. cant confess kasi medyo complicated eh.

now, nasa isip ko nalang is, magtrabaho at maging matino.

tanungan portion

2004-08-20T12:19:00.001+08:00

1.Will you ever date someone younger than you? - hmm yeap no big deal

2.Someone Older? - opportunity for new lesson hehehe

3.Ever been drunk - yeap

4.Been in love - yes i am presently hehehe

5.Loved someone who you knew you couldn'thave? - yes actually ngayon nga eh im not deserving huhuhu :(

6.Gotten in a car accident? - ya couple of years ago, bata pa ako nun..

7.Broken a bone - dislocated elbow and dislocated joint between my hand and arms

8.Had your heart broken? ya

9.Cheated on someone? hehhehe lang masasabi ko..

10.Been cheated on? oo before..

11.Last time you said I love you to someone? last night

12.Last time you cried? this week lang ata hehe

13.Where do you see yourself in 10 years? - with personal computer parin

14.What age do you see yourself married at? wala pa sa vocabulary ko ang marriage i want to enjoy my life pa being single :)

15.Describe your dream wedding? it would be undersea or over the mountain ceremony

16.If you could dye your hair one color, wat wudit be? blue with crap style

17.Have you ever tried skinny-dipping? nope

18.Would you rather give or receive? give, pero kung meron mag gigive sakin eh di receive lang

19.How many homes have you lived in? 3 na before sa Q.C birthplace 7 years i stayed there tapos makati present pero before i stay at Tondo Manila

20.1 pillow or two? pillow

221.Are you the romantic type? no hehehe!

my spiderman soundtrack

2004-08-07T11:43:00.000+08:00

got heard of it? sobrang ganda, thou very related sa aking persona hehehe, i dont mean i sound like a loser ha? pero songs are so maganda, like from dashboard band something, they have vindicated tapos yung ordinary by train. maganda sya you wont make sisi on yourself buying that disc for 395 pesos. its worth naman eh, pero if youre quite frustrated and cant afford, mag pirated ka, you can purchase one at greenhills, the one from theater mall and they sell it for 50 bucks lang. they print it from a printer of course pero so labo the cover, ang disc, sometimes from iomega and they burn it from a pc. that's on second floor in front of where you could repair your ps2.

i bought also blue crush disc, nice but i havent watch pa. i could watch it maybe later or bukas since its my rest day.

i wish for a great weekend...

survey no.1 15 questions

2004-08-06T07:21:00.000+08:00

15 questions

1. if you had more time alone, you would:
sleep,eat my fave dish alone without ka-share hehehe saka babalik ko yung painting ko saka poetry... reading books na rin

2. if you could change anything about the world:
ahmm that will be the making or invention of guns para wala nang war saka yung invention ng mga damet, para wala nang mararape saka lahat ng tao naka hubad na hehehe

3. if you had a plane ticket to anywhere in the world, you would visit
ahh gusto ko sa bahamas kasi mahilig ako sa beach

4. if you could live anywhere in the world, you would live:
sa california nalang sa tita ko kasi badtrip dito sa pinas puro kalupitan eh har har har

5. if you could ask God one question, it would be
love can move mountains but i was not meant for ________?

6. if you could, you would spend time with this famous person:
david blaine saka yun host ng lonely planet for featured places nandun din ako hehehe

7. if you could be famous, you would like to be famous for:
art and music

8. if you could magically change one thing in your physical appearance, it would be
my height! pandak kase ako hehehe!

9. if you were stranded on a desert island, you would want these three people with you
pede bang 2 nalang kame ng significant other ko?

10. the first thing you would do on a desert island:
wala nang keme keme, sex na hehehe, o kaya habulang gahasa!

11. if you were in prison, you would spend time:
listening to lastest cd o kaya magbabasa ng mga bagong mags in case pwede laptop, dadala rin ako laptop! VIP eh!

12. if you could erase one memory:
siguro yun past ko ibalik para itama lahat!

13. if you could choose your age of death:
ngayon na pede ba? 24

14. if you could bring back one person from the dead:
lolo ko para wala na kameng problems saka yung uncle boy ko

15. if you were a beverage or cocktail, you would be...
mango juice kasi favorite nya eh!

15. if u could ask for a wish, I wish:
for my peace of mind, peace on earth and more money, make me rich!